I’ve been poisoned
By too many poisonous demons
Posing as friends
Posing as human beings
Lying about their past and their future intentions
Stealing everything of mine
They thought I cared about
Money, trophies, and work
That I had paid for in blood, sweat and marriages
But they got me wrong
I couldn’t be found there
For I was already somewhere else
Someone else
Someone stronger
Someone colder
Their resentment actually empowering me
For all they did was prove
That material things are just that
They don’t get you to sleep at night
They don’t buy you a genuine embrace
They don’t ease your mind or your load
They don’t short cut you into heaven
They don’t justify your rusted conscience
For to lose it all
Is to finally be free
To shed every skin of protection
Until you are as liberated
As a new born naked baby
Free falling to a soft landing
And accepting it all
Pining for nothing except this moment
Where no memory exists
And there are no debts to be repaid
No one to breathe life into
And no eyes that can make me flinch
For when I look at you now
I see into your very soul
(C) Frank Howson 2020
